One of my friends recently started a blog and it gave me the itch to start writing on my own again. I can’t promise that I’ll keep this update and I can’t promise that it will be worth reading but that’s okay, I’m not even entirely sure anyone follows this blog anymore.
My life has changed in many ways since I last blogged on here.
Parker (bean) is obviously older. He’s 3 now. Wait sorry..make that 3 and a half. The half is very important to my ever growing boy. He is so smart and so sweet and I know that everyone said there was something about little boys and their moms and what a special bond it is but I was not prepared for this. I am so in love with my son and I feel so lucky to have him in my life. Parker loves animals, the color red, and his preschool class he goes to twice a week. He does not love fruit, wearing pants, or picking up toys. The last two “wear him out” so he’s obviously unable to do those.
Another new thing, we have a new member of our family. Don’t get excited, it’s not a baby. It’s our new dog Jaci. Our relationship has been a little rocky with her but after almost 6 months I feel like she finally really fits in our family. She is a black lab mix. We don’t know what she is mixed with but we can only assume a werewolf since she has the scariest smile I’ve ever seen. She is a super lover and never chews on anything, which we really appreciate. Our Isabel cat and her have become fast friends.
I’ve also taken on a new work venture. I’m now an independent consultant for Usborne books & more and I LOVE it. Like so much. My dream job would be owning my own book store and this is pretty damn close. Not only do I get paid, usually while wearing PJs and sipping wine, but our personal book inventory has tripled at very little cost to us. It’s a win win. Reading is such a passion of mine, expect many more book related posts.
And the last major change has been the biggest and the hardest and I’m not even sure how much I’m going to talk about it or maybe I’ll talk about it a lot… who knows? but on August 22nd I lost my younger (29 year old) sister and my 3 year old niece in a car accident. I thought I had been through a lot of pain with infertility and I had, a different kind of pain, but nothing compares to a loss like that. I think this is why I need to blog the most. I feel a little lost right now and I’m hoping blogging will help me anchor myself or figure out who this new me is. My nephew, who was also in the car, sustained some terrible injuries as well and is still recovering. The good news is he is finally coming home next week after over 3 months in the hospital. He is still very far from recovered but we are getting there. It’s just very hard to wrap your brain around this kind of thing. It’s hard to imagine a World where these two valued members of our family don’t exist. It’s just hard. But we are getting through or at least being forced to move forward one day at a time. Life seems to do that. It just goes on.
I hate to leave this on such a sad note so I think I’ll leave you with my favorite Parker quote of the week. Anytime he tries to talk us into something he says “How sound that?”. Which is adorable and also something I am never correcting. And I’m embarrassed to admit if he utters that phrase to me he will probably get whatever he was asking for. Terrible parenting..just terrible.
I hope all of you are doing well. I’m hoping now that I’m attempting to blog again I’ll also attempt to read blogs again so let me know in the comments if you’re still blogging or not.